i need a break in this whirlwind =]

busy, busy, busy bee =]

school is done next month so i'm trying REALLY hard to keep up with homework, grades, notes...eh, not really working considering the fact that i'm trying to spend ANY free time with my friends. i don't get to bed till laaate & wake up, so i'm always tired. i've tried the whole coffee gimick, but all i get is that strong taste of expresso left over in my mouth. no extra energy. no extra 'zing' to finish out my day. by the time i hit the sheets, i'm exasperated to the point of passing out.

but lately, the time up is sooo worth it. i've made a new, super awesome best friend, bridget <3 & by meething her, i've met katie, erica...& P (another boy). P....is egotistical, sarcastic. unemotionally attached to ANYTHING & gorgeous. sad thing is, another girl in my building is head over heels for him...so...gotta tread lightly there. thursday night i became heartbroken thanks to another guy & a group of friends took me to see book of eli & then went to uwgb nites. up till after 1:30am, but it was worth spending the time with them. watching the boys play dodgeball & floor hockey was amazingly fun.

i'm still sad about the guy i had my eye on for a while now. i haven't totally cried yet...just managed a little tears...but i'm sure it'll hit me when i least expect it.

chopped off my hair during spring break & pierced my nose. the weather has been BEAUTIFUL. i love going on walks with my friends to subway. it's an awesome 45 minutes there & back.

wtf: guys being douches.

muwah, bee
& if you tell her you love her, make sure she knows that you told me that, too.

hallelujah!

i have no idea if i spelled that right...

but spring break.

about.effing.time.

wtf: spring break(supposed to have sunshine...) & i get freaking fog & mist...

muwah, bee

Currently Sarah Buxton By Sarah Buxton Outside My Window see related

girls will be girls.

so i've avoided writing a few days. my life is once again boring. well. kinda, not necessairly boring but nothing super for me to write about, ya know?

lemme see....
i'm thinking about quitting my job. i don't really want to because i love the kids to death...well the three youngest anyway. but i'm being burnt out. i haven't had a day off in TWO weeks. lemme repeat, TWO. i work every monday-friday, supposed to have saturdays off, then back to work sunday morning until late afternoon. that's not what's been going on. i'm getting so tired. mon/wed/fri i have classes from 8:30am-12:40pm. then i get to work at about 1:30 until usually after 10pm. tues/thurs i don't get to work till about a quarter to 4pm cuz i have a late class & stay until after 10 again. i'm supposed to work until 8 M-F, then on sunday 7-2ish so i can help take the kids to church & get them settled down. ijust don't know what to do.

and the girls...gah! NEVER have girls if you can help it. especially twins. because when they're both teenagers, all they do is fight, fight, fight. my first month or so here, they were decent. and now, monsters. kaye is always so quiet, so i'm like...wtf changed.

i'm done w/ guys for right now because i'm so burnt out with work that i can't even concentrate. i'll talk to N or J & then end up passing out on them or telling them goodnight early so i can sleep.

which sleep has been prevented lately due to our NEIGHBOR, mr. flavor flav wanna be. he raps & he sucks. like really badly. & he does his rapping either after midnight when we're trying to sleep or early when we don't wanna wake up. i wrote him a post-it & stuck it on his door. he didn't like it so much. i was like, dude, idc, you keep me up late & wake me up early, i don't give a shit if i offended you. i've even talked to him like four separate times.

i'm kinda liking my classical music class cuz we're watching a movie. amadeus. it's not that bad. the guy who plays mozart has a creeper laugh but it keeps everyone laughing & paying attention.

oh! my roomie came back...don't remember if i mentioned that before or not. she came back on sunday. she's going home on friday cuz her mama wants her to. to 'keep an on her' or something like that. i wish my ma was around here to take care of me when i was icky. but noooope. she's four hours away, takin care of everyone else. i've been really hot (my face, chest, back, arms/legs off & on) & having a killer headache. i just want it to stoooop.

wtf: our weather. sunshine/mid30s. more sunshine/mid30s. snow/teens. sunshine/mid30s. really wi?

muwah, bee
they told me to find the girl i used to be.

from the bottom of my heart...

snow, snow go awayyyyyy. come again some other---never would actually be nice, except for on Christmas, thanks.

it's been a really long day & i just want to be back at the dorms, finishing my english paper, not here trying to keep the peace. elise & kay are going at it; like, literally. i had to break them up twice. elise calls kay names, kay responds by saying mean things at elise by using big words that she doesn't even understand (while i think this is funny, i don't condone it). then they start to get bilingual with each other because kay doesn't understand french (vous êtes aussi frais que footsie les pyjamas) & elise doesn't understand spanish (usted es tan estúpido como una roca)--you're as cool as footsie pajamas---you're as stupid as a rock---chill out. andrew just watches on w/ an amused grin, strumming away on his guitar. the babies don't even pay attention which is a good thing cuz like we really need heath or dellarae screaming, "le odio,puta!", "je vous déteste, chienne!" lol cuz THAT won't get me fired. ha. where do they even learn those words?

lol it's gonna be a good day.

wtf: i don't even know...

muwah, bee
love at first sight is often cured by a second glance.

eh...one of those days.

i'm cold, my back hurts & so ready for this day to end. it started at freaking a quarter to six because N decides he wants to text me on his way to work. i get up at 7:20 for one of my classes. he knows this. waiiiit an hour & forty minutes. but like a lovesick puppy (God i disgust myself sometimes) i didn't get mad at him. i was actually happy that he texted me. is that what i have resorted to? that i don't care when he texts me but that he does?

i miss my siblings a lot....like, all of them, not just my baby ones. even my sister who thinks she's the queen of everything. i understand A is in love with herself because she's 15...but honestly...she's 15. she can't do anything or go anywhere. but yeah..i miss her too =[ i'm four hours from home & like, i didn't really miss them much in the begining but now that i'm missing big events; S got his own place w/ K & their two babies now; MD is going on college visits; A's going for her license; L is learning multiplication; E is reading big chapter books; not to mention my neice MK who's finally beating Crash Bandicoot; my nephew C who's talking! i want to be there more than ever. i'm missing ouuuut. yeah i get phone calls & junk but still. it's hard. all my family is so far away; all i have here are my few friends that while i love them, they aren't my family or even my besties.

i don't know why i'm so down today. i think it's the snow. we got some more today & will continue to get it until wednesday. i need a warm place w/ barely ANY snow...except for on christmas.

 S & myself. Best big brother, everrrrrr. 

MD & me. He thinks he's gangster.

A & me. We're gonna work things out <3

L, E & me. I love these babies!

MK & C...best neice & nephew ever.
i cannot wait for spring break. going home and going to enjoy time w/ the fam & my two besties!

wtf: is wrong with me?

muwah, bee
i am in love with the whole damn world.